The truest version of myself.

Roman 7:14-25
This was a wrenching passage for me, full of the tumultuous paradoxes of what makes us so unforgivably human even when filled with the truth and love of God.

The person that God wants me to be is already inside me somewhere. But it's trapped under pressures, impulse, guilt, passions, laziness, apathy, contentment, mistakes.
I hear the voice of my truest self, and it's so quiet. The still small voice that tells me the right thing to do is not my conscience, I don't think it's even the voice of God...it is the voice of the truest version of myself. It's trapped within me and covered with so much wrong manifesting on the outside. I'd like to hear the voice shout louder at times, so I'm giving it words. And hopefully as I pare out the rest of the stuff that I don't need to be, I'll be ready to hear God's plan for me.