ARgh.. I'm frustrated. I keep thinking about how long it will be before I'm reunited with Sharl. I'm scared that we're starting to grow apart. Already, today, I had to cut our conversation short becuase I was in the middle of my small group meeting. I was upset because I couldn't talk, and it was the only chance that I had all day! If I don't get to talk to him, I feel like he's soooo far away. I don't like carrying out my life without him. There are so many little things that I wish I could tell him... little jokes I have in my head to share with him, things I'm feeling, things I'm thinking about, but I can't remember them by the time I talk to him.... IT's just not enough. I'm trying not to be too demanding and high maintenance, but it's hard. I'm trying my best to be cool about this situation, but IT SUCKS!! I feel so retarded for not handling myself better...I feel like a big sucky pie. It's not THAT bad... at least he's actually coming back. RRRRRR.... okay. Now I've gotten all worked up. I have to stop. NOW.



Note to self: When you're young and in love, be selective as to who you share your feelings with. They will try to make you feel you're being naive, and unaware of what love is.