wooooo... only one more paper to go.. but I can't seem to get myself to start it. I just realllllly want to watch Sex and the City all day long! I seriously hate this. I know I should just suck it up and get it over with... but AGH!

Went out to Moxies with my FPLL (as Gilbert calls us) Fei po lai lai... Theresa told us that Bettina is getting engaged this May! I know She's been planning this since she was 16, or for however long I've known her. She'd always been this older woman in a young person's body. I just can't help being a little surprised. It just feels funny that she's the first of my age group of friends to get married!! Feels like we're soooo young still. Theresa's a bit jealous of her, cause she'd always wanted to be the first...but for me, I think this news has made me realized that I'm not ready at all for marriage... the planning.... the stress... the life change...giving up my singlehood. Maybe I'm not mature enough yet or something. I know I've found the right guy, but WHEN will I ever feel like the time is right? I keep thinking that after school's over, I'll be ready.. but how will I know that? Guess I'm not at that stage of life yet... it seems so far away. BUt at 21, the idea of ACTUALLY being married is plausible. Kinda freaks me out. My mother was married at this age. My grandmother had 2 kids by this age! And now I'm here.... I'd alwyas hoped I'd be married by this age.. but now that i am here.. i find out that I still have a lot of growing up to do. Guess times have just changed, is all. Oh man.. this topic is getting me all flustred. Neva thought I'd be getting in a panic over it.. its just that it seems to be something that I notice to be coming up more and more. It feel so strange to finally be at that age...
Oh man..
that's enough for now.. I need to sit down and BREATHE.