What a beeeeeautiful day it was today. It was sunny and warm and perfect. I went to Sharl's and spent the day with him as we usually do.... Sleep, chitchat, laugh, sleep, play, TLC makeover/personal/dating/wedding, play, laugh, be silly, play invalid dressup.
Then we walked to the grocery store and did some shopping. I think i've gone grocery shopping with sharl just about every time he's gone! It's kinda fun.. feels like we're a real couple... doing couple-y things.
Then I went home for dinner and to study. Sometimes when I spend all day with him, I reach a point where I have an itch to get away.. to be by myself. Not necessarily that I want to be away from him, but just to do some Kim stuff. As much as I love being with him and doing stuff with him, I still need time to myself... just an hour or two to stretch or something, if you can call it that. When we live together.. I think we'll definately need an extra room or two in the house, So I dont' get tight. He asked me today if I get claustrophobic. I do... more than I am consciously aware. It's not until I look back and think... "Why did I do that?" that I come to my conclusions. When i got home, walked around and relaxed, I thought..."yeah.. it would have been nice to have dinner with Sharl, i wonder why I didn't stay." Now I know why. I need a little time out, before I'm ready to get back in the game. Besides.. I don't want to overstay my welcome so that sharl gets sick of having me around. Space is a good thing.
On an adjoining note...I was just talking to Anita on MSN about how she realized a lot about Ivan and herself while he was in Australia these past four months. She said that the distance was a good test to see if they were really meant to be. I know I'm going to be so sad when Sharl leaves during the summer for the army, but I think it will give me a good chance to think about US more objectively.. without being clouded by being so in love. It will give us both more of an opportunity to test our relationship. I think Sharl doesn't have as much of a problem about letting feelings cloud judgement... but I am easily caught up in the emotion. Especially with all this talk about marriage. I mean, for one, I can't believe someone actually wants to marry ME. me?? why??? And secondly, omg... marriage is my next step in life... so to speak... it's an ACTUAL possibiltiy!! And most importantly, I love Sharl very much... and I would love to spend my life with him. I'm so lucky to have found someone who loves me this much! I just want to be emotionally and mentally ready to commit myself to him fully, and maybe the time apart will show me how strong we really are, and allow for some froufrou emotions to settle a little. Ahhh... it's so exciting... all of this.. sometimes thinking about it makes my heart want to burst. I'm so happy. But I will miss him oooh so much...I'll hate every moment he's not around. Cause even though I need to get away, it feels so good to know he's only a "halfway" walk away.