One of the observations of feeling like an official adult is that I've come to see my family from a different vantage point. My parents are no longer people against whom I rebel. My brother is not someone against whom I fight for the remote control. My grandparents no longer seem they can stand the test of time.
My parents are more laid back than I had ever realized; people I have so much to learn from. My brother surprises me all the time as he is transitioning into adulthood just like me. He’s ambitious and reliable, owns a home and is going to become a husband soon! And my grandparents are just so rapidly slowing down that I can hardly keep up with it. This has probably been the most noticeable and difficult dichotomy of my family getting older: just as I am arriving at adulthood, they seem to be leaving.
I was very close to my grandparents growing up, and when my family uprooted to
I didn’t anticipate dementia, Alzheimer’s, emphysema...cancer.
It’s now in my face that life doesn’t stand still. I’m lucky for the rich memories, but I’m also scared for what’s to come. I’m not ready to face the sadness, so for now I’ll just stand still frozen in time.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
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